Needle-me this...

I have all these fun blog ideas during the day. Most of them are happy, upbeat daily stuff. However, usually, by the time I sit down and blog, I forget the cutesy stuff is and just blog about this stupid fertility stuff. Three random things on that topic...

1) I went to acupuncture today. Fell right asleep. What is hilarious is that I go to acupuncture for the health benefit as well as the anxiety relief about IVF. So I'm fighting needles with needles! This whole process is really strange.

2) We're starting IVF soon. I'm not sure if I want to put the dates/expectations out there just yet. I think maybe I'd like to blog during the process kind of a "pain in the butt/stomach" play by play, but I don't know. I mean everyone who reads this will probably know by the giant explosion that is my head popping off if this doesn't work, but I am going to have to really think about the pro's and con's of displaying the process so publicly.

Oh and more fun stuff...the Levonox shots in the stomach will be part of our IVF protocol to treat my gene mutation/clotting disorder. I'm freaking out a little bit, but such is life. We did have good news that my thyroid is fine so we just have to keep to testing it.

3) When I look back on the content of this blog, I think I'll see it as the best of times and the worst of times. What generations in the past have put in their "never to be seen" journals, my generation (or younger generation) displays to everyone. Reading over what we've been going through is not pretty. It is not a perfect life in the suburbs; put my full face of make-up on to go to Target; I'll be at the gym before bunco; let's have a dinner-party, I'll bring the main dish; oh everything is fabbbulous daahling; my live is perfect...type of blog. Rather it is turning out to be: I am sometimes normal, sometimes not; you thought you knew me, but maybe you don't want to know me this well; this part of being an adult sucks; and temper-tantrum throwing account of life during a very challenging time. I'm constantly embarrassed and sometimes even a little proud to think of what I've put out there in my darkest hour. Regardless - it's out there. If you are readying this then you probably read the rough stuff and I guess that you've figured out that this whole jet-setting, super-model, Nobel peace prize winning life I lead is just a facade. :)

All this being said, I am thankful that God put us in a time when science can offer options for us to be able to further attempt to have a baby. I think of women 50 years ago that suffered without the options we have now. I continue to pray that God will work through Dr. R's hands and that this will work out!