Better luck next time

Well, today, we had an appointment with an Reproductive Endocrinologist (geez, I had to spell check that, what a freaking word). Notice I say had an appointment...

So, about a 1.5 weeks ago I call one of the few female RE's in Dallas, Dr. Lee (the only time I've been examined by a male, I had a hot flash so bad sweat dripped off my face. I'm not kidding; it weirds me out so I'm sticking with the females.) She's a partner to one of the most popular RE's at Preby Dallas. She's been educated at MIT, Harvard and Duke. She's a genius in my book. So she had a cancellation for today and I scooped it up. We're currently in the interview stage. We want a good personality fit with whoever is going to so cozy with my ovaries. I want a warm and fuzzy, ball-buster (not literally), but you know what I mean. Someone who is going to handle my hormone induced state very compassionately, but also someone who is aggressively proactive. You know, someone like me. :) So, we wanted to start interviewing doctors early so that when we're ready to start IVF, we'll have our ace in the hole already lined up. Then, late last week at work, an evening meeting got plopped right where I would barely have time to make it to Dallas and back to my meeting in the suburbs. I fretted about it all weekend. Literally from Friday evening to Sunday, I created every scenario in my head on how to make it back in time. But, I kept thinking of how if I missed this meeting, I'd probably also lose my job (ummm, should have begged for that one). So I begrudgingly cancelled my appointment this morning.

Here's how my day really became ironic.

1) My boss comes back from his mid-day meeting. A big part of the meeting was infertility. He goes on to tell me that there "are some really great advances out there". Yeah, I know. I would have learned some too had I gotten to go to my appointment.

2) My meeting tonight was with area OB/GYNs to talk about all sorts of relevant information about having babies in our new hospital. 20 OB/GYNs in one room just describing all sorts of situations that I may or may not ever get to experience. I got to take the minutes so I'll have the joy of reliving the meeting again as I get them typed up.

I mean, really?

3) Michael was disappointed about not going to our appointment today. We had lunch together at Jason's Deli and an adorable, blonde little girl walks by...he gives her the cutest smile I've ever seen. A little glimpse of the immeasurable adoration he longs to express to his own. It literally broke my heart into a million pieces at the table. I'll probably be in big trouble for writing this part, but geez, things like that stick with you for a while.

Alas, I rescheduled our appointment for the end of April so there is going to be a lag in fertility updates unless anyone wants a play-by-play of ovulation time this month... What? No takers?